a bunch of nothin

yall im sooo sorry. i really have no time what-so-eva to blog.
forgive me

sooo heres an update of my life

job.. have one. thats good. hate it. thats bad real bad michael jackson
im looking for something else tho. i hate the hoes i work with

looking for a new whip. i want a suv. but its in gods hands. ill be thankful for whatever he blesses me with

relationship... i gotta lotta that. im good in that department. although my "he" pissed me off. im good.

still no babies so everythings gravy.

random im listening to the nicki minaj remix of go hard. its goes hard. fareal.
download here

im trying to have a safe summer. so many people have being dying. i dont get it. no one understands death. but everyone should be grateful of life.. because when its our time to go we have no control over it.

oh and i died my hair. red chunky streaks. im in love with it
i did it last spring 07

me in the middle

this time its not as bold



i been clubbing non stop. last week. i went out EVERY NIGHT SUM, MON, TUES, WED SKIP THURS FRI AND SAT. im worn theeee hell out. but im living life up.

well thats my life.
until next time

oh PS. KANYE IS OFFICIALLY GOING ON TOUR. YESSSSSSSSSSSS IM TOOOOOO EXCITED =]
--ill keep ya posted.

later

I used to love h.e.r.

Guess u never really know what u had until its gone. I feel so bad. i actually tried to diss you in front of everybody. i mean we had a real relationship. you understood me and i understood you. i shared my inner most thoughts to you. things that i would never tell anyone else and u never judged me.. you always TRIED to understand. but things have changed. certain people came into my life and you were no longer a priority. its real fucked up, yeah i know. I guess i really didn't know what to say to you. Thats why i was avoiding you, but i still love you. Although I'm seeing other people.. know that i love you and i will come back to you again. love ya blogger. i shall return.

HUHHHHHHHHHHHH.

UGHHHHHHHHHHH WDF BLOGGER??? IM GETTING AN ERROR MESSAGE WHILE TRYING TO COMMENT. SO DONT THINK IM NOT READING UR BLOGS. THAT WORD VERIFICATION SHIT KEEPS SAYING ERROR.SO FOR THOSE OF YOU WITH THAT ANNOYING SHIT ON UR PAGE.. I CANT COMMENT.
SO IM DONE BLOGGING AND READING BLOGS FOR THE NIGHT.


PS. WHY IS MY LIP SWOLLEN LIKE CHRIS BROWN PUNCHED ME? UMMMM. THIS IS NOT CUTE. ANGELINA JOLIE HAS NOTHING ON ME RIGHT NOW.

you shoulda hit him with ya umbrella- ella ella .

I feel so under the weather right now.
Its warmed up so much here. i didnt wear heavy coat today or yesterday.. but like right now
I feel like pure shit. and it came outta no where man. my head is throbbing, my stomach hurts, i feel like im about to throw up. (i tried to make myself throw up) but nothing came up.

Ugh i hope this does not mean im about to get sick. i hardly get sick but when i do.. they go hard. they last for a good month.

seein that i cant pop pills.. im about to drown my sorrows with some nightquil. (yuckie)

Salene still wants me to ride with her to Alabama on Friday. I hope i feel up to parr.

Im thinking about doing a weekly v-log. i know my girls dopefiend and dopeness do them all the time. im thinking about doing a t.g.i.f v-log. only if i have time. i tried doing a vlog and started laughing at myself. It was weird talking to a camera. Idk why.. i swear i talk to myself out loud ALL THE TIME.
What do you think?

OH and to my dear friend Velly Velle where the hell are you?? U havent updated in forever.

Bang Bang Shoot Em.

I loooooooooove Sade. [the singer] one of my favorite songs of all time is By your side. The song is so beautiful. Its calming to me. Although I dont have anyone actually by myside "boyfriend or significant other" It still feels good to me. IDK kind of weird i guess but i just love it [ im listening to it now.. im always listening to music] listen with me

AnywhoToday.. nothing really happended
My bestfriend and i have been making promises to ourselves to not eat fast food during the week. And we actually made it [ so proud of us] i need to lose some major pounds before March. So i can look cute in my dress. Oh and i need to be skintee by June {when i move to ATL} im determined!!!


I had to work my slave shift today. 3-11:30 or whenever your last call is. I work for sprint for the millioneth time {if u didnt know} And i HATEEEE IT! (*note* if your a sprint customer and you call in all the EFFIN TIME for STUPID EFFIN REASONS.. then shame on you! I cant stand your ass!!) Well today was actually fun. I kept putting my annoying customers on hold to talk to my {soon to be roommate} we clowned the entire day.. And our supervisor asked us to come over his house for a house warming {in the near future} i was like ughh im not buying u shit! {he's a young black, short fat guy who thinks he's that nigga} he was like i dont want shit from you just come and get fucked up. I was like oh liquor well im down! lol so trifilin. but i love free liquor its the best! lol but this nigga bet not try shit or i will bring out my kung-fu karate chop on his ass! lol
Oh and its this really cute guy who works with me. As my friend Salene would say, he's The "bang bang shoot em up" type lol.

Me and the roomie Salene just look and admire him all day. Tattoos everywhere, can dress and drives a bmw [helll-o $$$$] naw but i vowed to never talk to a guy i worked with again. it NEVER works out! he's just nice to look at though.
Now its Thursday night and im freakin off tomorrow and i have nothing to do!
So i guess i'll just visit my blog roll and catch up

[tmrw]
my sisters bff and i have to go and try on our freakin dresses. i dont want to because i have to wake up early when i should be sleepin in, but whatever! Oh and i know im shopping at the mall whenever were done with that! i saw theee cutest boots and i must go grab them
well im rambling.. so tootles!

xoxo Amber ---->> i miss the Jayne Dough signature<--- wasnt it so creative of me? lol.

Oh Em Gee.

It's a Friday night and guess what i'm doing. BLOGGING!
Damn i have no life. One of my guy friends "S" who likes me but is so fucking annoying just called trying to cake. Heres the convo:
JD: (deep breath) Hello
S:Hey
JD: Umm. Hey
S:You at the crib
JD: yeah why
S: Im about to come over.
JD: Ugh are you? (sarcasm)
S: Yeah.. what i cant?
JD: Naw im about to leave (lying)
S: Damn i cant come and say hello
JD: FOR WHAT if im about to leave?
The poor guy just kept begging.. but i don't give in to shit like that. One of my homegirls "ShaQuana" just called me asking if i wanted to go blow one and go cosmic bowling. Im considering it. Lord knows i need a job and i cant be trying to take other peoples pee to the place to take a drug test again. That shit was disgusting. I had my cousin pee in this baggie. and the shit leaked all in my pants AND IT STUNK! my stomach is super weak so i was gagging. But i learned a trick. For you weed smokers.. if u put a itty pity drop of bleach in your pee it would come out clean. It worked for me. But im not even a smoker. i will every blue moon. So dont get it twisted. But back to me being bored. This shit is for the birds. Well i'm out. Facebook i shall go.

Just one of those days

basically its one of those days. i have alice smiths cd in rotation. feelin real mellow but i feel like i missin something. i really dont have the patience to meet someone new.. nor do i really wanna talk to someone from the past... so whats a girl to do? idk.

its funny that when someone likes you so much u can careless about them but when they move on.. you start to care. this guy had the bigggest crush on me. told me he liked me all the time. i always ignored him or brushed it off. i was content with being just friends. well ne who. he got a girlfriend and i started acting really jealous (im normally not like that) but i knew right then and there i really cared. (or i was being selfish) Now everything has changed. we barely talk. its just weird. i miss him a little but i can never admit to it.

wrote a poem about it:
4am blues
My yawning face is awake again. With this 4am blues. Still in love.. Looking confused. Got me feeling stuck cuz I refuse to give up on something I know is so right. But you don’t care so it should only be right that I give up this fight. But inside I’m yearning for your love. Feigning to hear your voice cuz it makes the world stop. You told me you never wanted to hurt me but why am I sitting here feeling like my hearts been ripped apart? I’m tired of pretending I’m fine knowing I’m not. I miss you. I want you. Better yet I need you. I told myself I would never fall in love again cause this shit hurts my soul. Yet here I am forced out of love . Hurt. Looking confused and feeling stuck. But I refuse to give up. I’m sitting here awake with all these mixed feelings racing through my mind. I got the 4am blues for the 3rd night in a row. I wish I could just get over you but I just cant let go.

Random!! ---> i had a talk with my girl Coco Black. She put alot of things into perspective. she said "If you don't see what you want around you - create it." i love this girl she is ridiculously fly and her mind is out of this world. i feel her though. sometimes i feel all alone on this planet. my mind goes off to other galaxies sometimes. lol anywho check her out.
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