There are two kinds of people the righteous and the wicked

So if you guys didnt know already. I am from IndiaNAPolis aka Naptown aka Nappyville. And these are some of my homeboys that are doing it heavy with their music here. Just showing my support. The video is actually dope. They talk at the beginning but there is a music video. So watch and comment.

Souljah Boy Tell Em.. Work

Not gonna lie.. He got me with the Gucci Bandana song.. Yes i like Souljah Boy.. I dont give a damn what you think. Im sure you was singing.. turn my swag on like everyone else.. so wannn stfu

This song is STUCK in my head "Work"

im geeked

Sooooooooo im sure by now you know im IN LOVE with Kanye. He's my favorite entertainer..

i also love all G.O.O.D. music. Common, Cudi, Big Sean.. and support them and their projects to the FUUUUUUUULLEST...

my song.. with 3 of my faves. Kid Cudi, Common and Ye.. = ) with the Lady Gaga poker face sample in the back -make her say

-if you dont like this video or song.. you suck and were not friends.. jump of the bridge.. k.

Nicki the Ninja

So if you didn't already know I love Nicki "the ninja" Minaj ( Nicki Lewkinsky..Harajuku Barbie Bitch) Lol that was super extra. But naw it was about time we had another cunty ass female rapper in the game. Khia & Shawna had one hit, Remys locked up, Lil Kim's too busy dancing for fans, Trina comes and goes so hey im feelin Miss Minaj. Plus shes super sexy <---no rainbows intended.
If you havent heard or copped her Mixtape Beam Me Up Scotty You can download it. HERE) <----OR click her picture make sure you download Treys Anticipation on the side bar too. I'm just trying to keep your speakers fresh this summer. Thank me later.

-xoxo
Barbie Bitch


oh i will be releasing my mix tape on my birthday in September. =)
i need help with titles.

New Videos

I saw Pleasure P live last summer at this little summer jam in Indianapolis. I've been a fan since. So over course we have all played that bf number 2 song out.. but this is one of my fav. songs from his cd the video is really pretty too check it out love muffins



buy his cd here. its pretty dope believe it or not.

And the lastest song from my favorite ex memeber of Destinys Child Letoya Luckett.
When i first heard the song i was indifferent but now its stuck in my head.
watch the video tell me what you think

Day 26 (truth is) I see Diddy really promoting these dudes. They have another video called girlfriend thats out.. but its low budget no point of posting. But i like this song.. heres the video


Wiz Khalifa is a really dope artist too. Hella people be sleeping on him. He reminds me of a modern day Talib Kweli. (my opinnion) The video for Name on a cloud/ wussup is real chill it has a old school feel.


HE'S BACKKKKK my favorite rappers favorite rapper Jay- Z is back with D.O.A.
the video is coo. I love this song. Note he wasnt referring to Kanye.. seeing that Ye produced it. lol.. i been real defensive on his behalf lately. Anywho heres the video



And my favorite Kanye with my favorite song from heartbreaks & 808's Street Lights video.. Yall already know i LOVE it!!! Only he can do the cartoon videos.


which ones did you like?

YOU WORRIED BOUT THE WRONG THANGS THE WRONG THANGS

LMAO I SWEAR IM NOT A KANYE GROUPIE.

HE IS JUST MY FAVORITE ENTERTAINER

SO UNCLE YE.. OF COURSE WENT HAM ON THIS EGO REMIX

HERES THE VIDEO


OH AND BEYONCES NEW VIDEO FOR BROKEN HEARTED GIRL

a bunch of nothin

yall im sooo sorry. i really have no time what-so-eva to blog.
forgive me

sooo heres an update of my life

job.. have one. thats good. hate it. thats bad real bad michael jackson
im looking for something else tho. i hate the hoes i work with

looking for a new whip. i want a suv. but its in gods hands. ill be thankful for whatever he blesses me with

relationship... i gotta lotta that. im good in that department. although my "he" pissed me off. im good.

still no babies so everythings gravy.

random im listening to the nicki minaj remix of go hard. its goes hard. fareal.
download here

im trying to have a safe summer. so many people have being dying. i dont get it. no one understands death. but everyone should be grateful of life.. because when its our time to go we have no control over it.

oh and i died my hair. red chunky streaks. im in love with it
i did it last spring 07

me in the middle

this time its not as bold



i been clubbing non stop. last week. i went out EVERY NIGHT SUM, MON, TUES, WED SKIP THURS FRI AND SAT. im worn theeee hell out. but im living life up.

well thats my life.
until next time

oh PS. KANYE IS OFFICIALLY GOING ON TOUR. YESSSSSSSSSSSS IM TOOOOOO EXCITED =]
--ill keep ya posted.

later

New Videos

Enjoy

oh yes bitches im excited.... =]

something to smile about =]
my unc yae FINALLY dropped his amazing video and I LOVE IT.
if u dont like Ye then kick boudlers and die slow.
this blog is not for you especially since i love him.

watch and enjoy

Help......

i've been using myxer to get ringers FOREVER! All of a sudden it saying my phone isnt capable.. so people whats other websites to get ringers. (besides 3gforfree and gritzandeggs)

KERI BABY!!!

OKay K.Hilson kinda turned me off with that remix. how dare she? but she was on some punk shit apologizing to Ciara and Beyonce saying she wasnt talking about them. (PET PEEVE) Please dont talk shit then be scared to back it up.. but im back on the Keri boat. March 24th.. i'll be buying her cd. Seeing that i LOVEEEEEEEEEEE this song she redeemed herself with this video + my UNC Ye is in it + Keri's vocals are on point = A from me.
So heres a snippet to the Make Love Video.



p.s. sorry i keep posting videos.. but this is MY BLOG BITCHES! + im too lazy to blog fareal fareal.

P.S.S. what the hell does P.S. really stand for?

Be Jealous.

I love DOWNTOWN Chicago so much. Its so much to do and see. (minus the $20.00+ parking any & everywhere you go) So the bestfriend Ashley J. and I had to drive 3 hours to Chicago to see Estelle and Solange in concert. Since no one hardly comes to Indianapolis. And it was A M A Z I N G! They both are great ass performers. We were like the first people in line (we were determined to be in the front) and we were front row center! Solange opened up for Estelle killing it in these beautiful open toed mulitcolored pumps(picture below) and a short, black and gold 3.1 mini Phillip Lim dress. I love the fact she went into the crowd and danced around with us. She's amazing and if your sleeping on her then shame on you! She did EVERY song on her album that i love. Would've Been The One, Cosmic Journey, T.O.N.Y., Sandcastle disco and a melody of her songs Chronic and God Given Name. She remixed that Devin the Dude song. it was hot. She definetly did her thing. Sound and looked amazing.
She left stage by throwing the mic stand into the crowd.. it was sooo funny. Especially since she ran off afterwards. (oh and we stole her water) haha. Groupies
Then Estelle came on.. rocking skin tight true religions, a white blazer and black top. Accessorized down with Chanel and black strappy gladiator pumps. She is a very personal and energetic performer. Her band including her three background singers were all men (i thought that was interesting) She was pulling fans on stage with her left and right. I love when artist do shit like that. Overall i had so much fun, it was worth the ride, money.. whateva.
Oh and shouts out to both Solange and Estelle for writing me on twitter. (so just made my day)

Oh and the House of Blues doesnt allow cameras.. (so we snuck them in by putting them in our shirts)
So enjoy. (no zoom)

80's baby but 90's raised me.

I was talking to my bff about what happend to good music and how i wish i was a teenager in the late 70's early 80's. I just feel like that was one of the best era's of music. Hell even the early 90's. Music these days is so fuckin stupid. Plies-- he gets on my nerves, Ne-yo love his songs but hate the fact he thinks he can dance when he cant, and i cant stand looking at them ugly lips, Rappers- everyone is on the damn vocoder /auto tune shit.(your not zapp and roger!) sooo annoying too! i cant listen to ron brows entire pop champagne song without wanting to insert my finger down my throat. It just seems like anyone can get a record deal. [shameful]

Well luckily i was blessed with parents who love music and always had artist like: Luther, Stevie, Bob Marley, Roger and Zapp, The Isley Brothers, The O'Jays, The SOS band, LL Cool J, Anita Baker etc. blasting from our Cadalliac, record player, 8 track and cassette player. I've grown to believe im a music head. I love it. So here are some of my favorite songs. Believe it or not they are still in rotation for me.

De La Soul - me, myself and I
Digable Planets - Rebirth Of Slick (Cool Like Dat)
Bob Marley - redemption song
The Roots - You Got Me
Outkast - So Fresh So Clean
Lauryn Hill - Sweetest Thing
I could post the entire miseducation of Lauryn Hill album/ Fugees- The Score.
Ice Cube-Today Was A Good Day
R Kelly - Sweet Sadie
Common - I Used To Love H.E.R
Shai - If I Ever Fall In Love
Arrested Development - Tennessee
Kelly Price - As We Lay
Mariah Carey - Always Be My Baby
En Vogue - Giving Him Something He Can Feel
Janet Jackson - Any time, any place
Salt N Pepa - Shoop
Guy - Let's Chill
Erykah Badu- Next Life Time
Carl Thomas- Summer Rain
Xscape - Understanding
Skee-Lo - I Wish
Jodeci - Forever My Lady
Mokenstef- He's mine
Changing Faces - Foolin' Around

just a few. so sync em to ur ipod. listen & think of me.

"I grew up on video soul, Donnie Simpson and Rachael.
Making up dances to songs by girl groups,
screwballs and ice cream cones
ring pops & candy necklaces,
white girls & jelly bean sandals
koolaid smiles and side ponytails.
super nintendo blowing on the catridges
riding my bike all day and playing kickball in the street.
i was a kid at heart but i loved music. I miss it." future post

"Back in the days when i was young im not a kid anymore, but somedays i sit and wish i was a kid again." Ahmad


lata suckas

He lost his soul to a woman so heartless.

Need i say more?
Kanye is a effin beast. He's creative. real. arrogant and need i say stylish.
i love this man!
hype williams killed it.


i damn near think im heartless. i wanna love and shit but im afraid of it. afraid to be in a serious relationship. im afraid of commitment. afraid to think too hard about a guy. afraid of missing someone. afraid of getting hurt. afraid he wont love me back. afraid of being alone. afraid to open up. im afraid to move on because im afraid he will move on and fall in love with someone else. im afraid he will forget what we had. so i act heartless.

The Miseducation of my heart

Its cold outside. i need a winter boo. life is so dull w/o one. Ive been single for way too long. ive done some soul searching for myself and maturing. i just want to be loved, feel loved, and give love. "but if i lack love then i am nothing at all"-L.boogie So save the useless words of encouragement. :be patient, theres someone for all of us: ugh shut up. im a girl i can vent about love its our god given right. so this is me venting . . the end

MUSIC IS MY THERAPY

Troubled little angel
Inconsistent... flying blind most of the time
Drama queen
Preening and untanglin'
Feathers in her wings
Captured by her dreams
Desperately she sings
Needy little baby
Open up your heart
Don't you be afraid to feel
Needy little baby
Hidin' deep inside
Don't you know your love can heal
Troubled little angel
Inconsistent
Flying blind most of the time
Don't know who to be [yeah]
Always rearranging the wreckage of her life
Ever holding tight to the hope that she'll be free
Needy little baby
Open up your eyes
Don't you be afraid to feel
Needy little baby
Hidin' deep inside
Don't you know your love can heal
I'm talking to you angel
Angel Deep inside of me
I'm talking to you angel
Angel One day you'll be free

chaka khan- angel lyrics..
This song gives me hope and lets me know its okays to be vunerable, cry and need someone to talk to.

my life is like a puzzle of 1000 pieces and 90 of them are missing.
i dont know if im going back to school or not because no one will be a damn co-signer.
im not asking for money.. help.. anything. just a sign your name on the - - - - dotted line.
X________ (thats it)
but everyone has more excuses then a blind man on crack.
if i have to stay in indianapolis i may commit suicide. (okay that was deep) maybe not suicide but a part of me will definitely die. i hate being here so much. all i wanna do is cry about the situation but im way to strong to even break down.
i have sent so much money to school so far.. and to know its going to waste. better yet.. everyone had something to say when i came home to transfer and decided to sit out a semester. i heard every story possible. from slaves not being educated, to dr. martin luther kings dream and why all the honorable leaders died, went to jail and fought for ppl like me to go to school and just throw it down the drain.. i heard stories about being poor and broke.. living pay check to pay check (them not realizing i was currently trying to get the hell out of dodge to go to school)
now NO ONE.. wants to help me. i feel hopesless and im 2.5 seconds away from giving up and saying fuck it. im trying to be strong but even the strongest have weak points.

pray for me.

Just one of those days

basically its one of those days. i have alice smiths cd in rotation. feelin real mellow but i feel like i missin something. i really dont have the patience to meet someone new.. nor do i really wanna talk to someone from the past... so whats a girl to do? idk.

its funny that when someone likes you so much u can careless about them but when they move on.. you start to care. this guy had the bigggest crush on me. told me he liked me all the time. i always ignored him or brushed it off. i was content with being just friends. well ne who. he got a girlfriend and i started acting really jealous (im normally not like that) but i knew right then and there i really cared. (or i was being selfish) Now everything has changed. we barely talk. its just weird. i miss him a little but i can never admit to it.

wrote a poem about it:
4am blues
My yawning face is awake again. With this 4am blues. Still in love.. Looking confused. Got me feeling stuck cuz I refuse to give up on something I know is so right. But you don’t care so it should only be right that I give up this fight. But inside I’m yearning for your love. Feigning to hear your voice cuz it makes the world stop. You told me you never wanted to hurt me but why am I sitting here feeling like my hearts been ripped apart? I’m tired of pretending I’m fine knowing I’m not. I miss you. I want you. Better yet I need you. I told myself I would never fall in love again cause this shit hurts my soul. Yet here I am forced out of love . Hurt. Looking confused and feeling stuck. But I refuse to give up. I’m sitting here awake with all these mixed feelings racing through my mind. I got the 4am blues for the 3rd night in a row. I wish I could just get over you but I just cant let go.

Random!! ---> i had a talk with my girl Coco Black. She put alot of things into perspective. she said "If you don't see what you want around you - create it." i love this girl she is ridiculously fly and her mind is out of this world. i feel her though. sometimes i feel all alone on this planet. my mind goes off to other galaxies sometimes. lol anywho check her out.
http://theagytators.blogspot.com/

i gotta pocket full of sunshine =}

so i'm like really in love with Natasha Bedingfield. Her songs are so soulful and pure. she reminds me of Sade (pureness). It feels like she went into my soul and made a song for each and every feeling i have.. it doesnt matter if im happy, mad, sad, in love, wanting a boyfriend, feeling liberated and independent.. she has a song. she was already an amazing singer.. but she is amazing live as well. Her British accent is as cute as a doll too! I went to the concert last night with my bestfriend Ashley. We really enjoyed ourselves.

IN OTHER NEWS: GO BARACK!! NOW THATS WHAT IM TALKING ABOUT. HILLARY STILL HATING OF COURSE. PPL KILL ME TALKING ABOUT THEY AREN'T GOING TO VOTE BECAUSE OF HIS LACK OF EXPERIENCE. OKKAY. WHO REALLY HAS EXPERIENCE BEING A PRESIDENT. AND GEORGE BUSH HAD EXPERIENCE AND STILL FUCKED UP (HIS 2ND TERM) SO EXPERIENCE MEANS NOTHING TO ME. He IS THE MOST QUALIFIED, MOST DEDICATED.. IM EXCITED FOR HIM!

today is a very dull day. its rainy and cold. we have had our series of tornado's.. ? lol i have no complaints really. i can always use a nap. i never sleep. someone on facebook made a great point. "I NEVER SLEEP. ..BUT IF U SLEEP 8 HOURS A DAY, AND LIVE TO B 99..UD BE DONE SLEPT 33 YEARS.." thats crazy.. sleep to rejuvinate the body.. some people sleep to get away from whats going on in the world around them. but realize when u wake up.. everything will still be there. all i need is a nap. lol -- u better get up..get out and get something!!

"Beauty gets attention, but personality captures the heart."

peace and love people..

I woke up on the wrong side of the bed.

i got a pocket full of sunshine!

no matter how bad your situation is know there is someone out there who has it worse. Although today has been a horrrrrrrible day. i've kept a smile on my face. i didnt go to sleep until 4am {couldnt sleep}. got up at 6:30 am for work... spilled something on my pants (had to change) left my wallet, debit card, license, money etc. at the crib, had the worse headache on earth.. + co-workers have been annoying the shit out of me whew! thats a-lot!! i've had worse days.. but i just feel like i woke up on the wrong side of the bed.. but i still have my pocket full of sunshine. speaking of. Im geeked.. im going to see my girl.. one of my fav singers for the UK Natasha Bedingfield.. The Veronicas and Kate Voegele are there as well. Hopefully this will take my mind off of alot. This has been a stressful week and its ONLY TUESDAY! geez.

How could the one i gave my heart to break my heart so bad.. yeah they say karmas a bitch and u never know what u had until its gone.. CLEARLY he has realized that. i just cant rush into it again. when u love somebody u will always love them no matter what circumstances and situations u may have to overcome. this dude has put my heart on a rollercoaster. but im talking to him again because im CRAZY BORED! he seems like he changed. im not trying to be in a relationship with him or anything.. he is just good company. plus now he has soo much baggage. (no im not talking about the ex who popped up.. this is another guy) .. i really dont know what to do.. im just taking it day by day.. step by step. well will see..

i need to go cop that Ashanti Cd. i need a new R&b cd to vibe too. I've played out that Mariah ALREADY! lol. Well until Next time people. stay lifted!