a bunch of nothin

yall im sooo sorry. i really have no time what-so-eva to blog.
forgive me

sooo heres an update of my life

job.. have one. thats good. hate it. thats bad real bad michael jackson
im looking for something else tho. i hate the hoes i work with

looking for a new whip. i want a suv. but its in gods hands. ill be thankful for whatever he blesses me with

relationship... i gotta lotta that. im good in that department. although my "he" pissed me off. im good.

still no babies so everythings gravy.

random im listening to the nicki minaj remix of go hard. its goes hard. fareal.
download here

im trying to have a safe summer. so many people have being dying. i dont get it. no one understands death. but everyone should be grateful of life.. because when its our time to go we have no control over it.

oh and i died my hair. red chunky streaks. im in love with it
i did it last spring 07

me in the middle

this time its not as bold



i been clubbing non stop. last week. i went out EVERY NIGHT SUM, MON, TUES, WED SKIP THURS FRI AND SAT. im worn theeee hell out. but im living life up.

well thats my life.
until next time

oh PS. KANYE IS OFFICIALLY GOING ON TOUR. YESSSSSSSSSSSS IM TOOOOOO EXCITED =]
--ill keep ya posted.

later

Cry for Help

Twitterworld went bananas tonight over these "leaked" pictures of Cassie.


At 2:17 am she tried to redeem herself by saying, "
cassieventura IT SEEMS THAT SOMEONE HAS HACKED INTO MY COMPUTER...THAT'S REAL FOUL AND EVIL. NOW STOP ACTING LIKE YOU HAVEN'T SEEN A TITTY BEFORE. "

I feel her. its not that deep not at all. im not posting the nude pictures. yall can see enough above. but damn its crazy mofos are going crazy.

i think its an attention stunt. diddy probably made her ass do it. lmao its crazy how much power niggas can have over u when ur in LUST.
FIRST THE HAIR

AND NOW THIS FOOLISHNESS

..the life of an unofficial girl

read the rest of the story here

Be Jealous.

I love DOWNTOWN Chicago so much. Its so much to do and see. (minus the $20.00+ parking any & everywhere you go) So the bestfriend Ashley J. and I had to drive 3 hours to Chicago to see Estelle and Solange in concert. Since no one hardly comes to Indianapolis. And it was A M A Z I N G! They both are great ass performers. We were like the first people in line (we were determined to be in the front) and we were front row center! Solange opened up for Estelle killing it in these beautiful open toed mulitcolored pumps(picture below) and a short, black and gold 3.1 mini Phillip Lim dress. I love the fact she went into the crowd and danced around with us. She's amazing and if your sleeping on her then shame on you! She did EVERY song on her album that i love. Would've Been The One, Cosmic Journey, T.O.N.Y., Sandcastle disco and a melody of her songs Chronic and God Given Name. She remixed that Devin the Dude song. it was hot. She definetly did her thing. Sound and looked amazing.
She left stage by throwing the mic stand into the crowd.. it was sooo funny. Especially since she ran off afterwards. (oh and we stole her water) haha. Groupies
Then Estelle came on.. rocking skin tight true religions, a white blazer and black top. Accessorized down with Chanel and black strappy gladiator pumps. She is a very personal and energetic performer. Her band including her three background singers were all men (i thought that was interesting) She was pulling fans on stage with her left and right. I love when artist do shit like that. Overall i had so much fun, it was worth the ride, money.. whateva.
Oh and shouts out to both Solange and Estelle for writing me on twitter. (so just made my day)

Oh and the House of Blues doesnt allow cameras.. (so we snuck them in by putting them in our shirts)
So enjoy. (no zoom)

Take a picture.. it will last longer..

LET IT BURN PLAYA!!

SO DID YALL HEAR ABOUT THE CRAZED WOMAN WHO SET HER HUSBANDS D-ICK ON FIRE?? HAHA. WELL LETS NOT CALL HER CRAZY B/C HOW MANY WOMEN SAY, "WHATEVER, IF [INSERT NAME HERE] CHEATS ON ME, I'LL CUT IS BALLS OFF?" WELL CHICK DEFINITELY WASNT KIDDING. EFF THE BLODDY MESS.. SHE BURNT THAT MOTHAEFFA OFF. [PO LIL TINK TINK]
APPARENTLY 44 YR OLD RAJiNi NARAYAN THOUGHT HER HUSBAND SATISH NARAYAN (THEIR AUSTRALIAN)HE WAS CHEATING ON HER. BUT THE CRAZY THING IS SHE DID IT WHY THE POOR GUY WAS SLEEPING. AND HE DIED. ISNT THAT SAD. SHE WAS CHARGED WITH MURDER AND ARSON.
READ THE REST OF THE STORY HERE

WHATS THE WORLD COMING TO?

Just like a star.

my tv stays on the video channels. i have to hear music at all times no matter what im doing. so at this very moment.. very second Corrine Bailey Rae is singing one of my favorite songs: Like A Star. And of course im thinking of "Free". The first time i heard this song i was talking to him. So of course it draws back sooo many memories. But for some reason im okay with the "thought" of missing him. I cant live in the past anymore. I'll never move on. We are milessssssssss away from each and were friends. Honestly i'm happy with just that.

. . . . . . . . . . . . . . . >>>> I want to go nat-u-ral. i've been saying it for sometime now. But everytime i tell my mom (she was a beautican) and my sister they both laugh and say girrrrrl why u wanna do that. ughh im me thats why. i dont really care about hair. its just hair. it doesnt make me or break me and hell it will grow back, but i've been getting perms since i was TWO.{____pause for reaction___) lol. but i know what your thinking. but my hair is beyoooond thick. its a good thing i guess. b/c alot of ppl think my hairs a "wig" which is funny. but i hate getting perms, i hate getting my hair done; yet i love to have it done. i just hate the process. but i look up to women like Jill Scott, E. Badu, Goapele
and Corrine. I'm obsessed with ppl who have natural hair. i'll ask a billion questions. I think thats why i love guys with locs. Although its slightly annoying now, "everyone is doing it" i still love it. i personally dont want locs at the momemnt i just want the gorgeous fro.

i think they are soooooo beautiful. i respect girls who have natural hair. it just says they don't have any hair insecurities. I think women with natural hair have a little glow about them. Their presence stands out in a room full of 50 girls. JUST MY OPINION! But i'm such a chicken. Not even going to lie. i hate braids (corn rows, micros, etc.) and ive been told its the easiest way to let the perm grow out and i'm not cutting the perm out my hair until most of my hair is natural. i just dont have the patience. so i'll be wishing until i get the courage to do it.

My president is black, he turned hella states blue and i'll be got damned if Indiana aint too!

My feet hurt. My back hurts. Im STILL cold. I worked my ass off for Mr. Obama ALL DAY TODAY. 6am-6pm ya heard. Passing out flyers, showing ppl how to vote, helping them find their voter locations.. Hell yeah i Baracked that shit hard. So he better fuckin wins or its some mad foolishness going on in the government. I heard some crazy ass stories today. Some voters in Ohio were seperated by race.. blacks in one line, white in the other (CRAZY) some candiate threw away hella votes.. they was blocking streets off. I know here in Nap they was pulling people over EVERYWHERE. the blocks were hot. all this is some nonsense. i hate that the states are this crooked. So im letting it be known, if for any reason Barack doesnt get into the "black" house. im outty. United Kingdom here i come.

But i have faith he will pull it off. Id rather switch up states instead of countries. lol

Well i hope everyone had a successful voting day. Tell me how your day turned out.
This is damn near it for me (political talk)
May the best man win! (cough cough Barack)

peace out peoples!

Don't call it a come back..

Wow. I havent blogged in forever. Sorry. The internet connection in my house wasn’t working. (that’s why) But don't call it a come back. I will be posting more often.
So lets play catch up... No i didnt run off and get married to the mailman.. Why?? Because he was undeniably a effin stand in. The next day I waited of course and some old ass black man came walking up grinning. I just rolled my eyes. I hate when old men try to hit on me. Its fuckin disgusting. Im pretty sure you have a niece, daughter.. fuck that probably a granddaughter my age. But anyways I was super mad.
Being broke aint no joke. My job search is still a job search. Lol just cross your fingers for me because i have to get the grind.
I’ve been going out like a crazed woman. Techno Clubs, Chilled spots (lounges) hip hop clubs.. Just clubbin. Hell I’m 21. This is what I’m supposed to be doing. I’m not really one to give my number out in the club, because I’m a club sipper and you all know liquor makes everyone look better.. So no new boo alerts.

Classic was Hmmmm. Dunno what to say about it. I went out the entire weekend. I had an okay time. I really hate going out with a bunch of girls because that usually equals a bunch of attitudes {super annoying} But one of the nights we went out we ran into Brian McKnight and Mike Epps at the club. (funny story) Brian McKnight was hitting on my bff The Black Barbie. It was hella funny. We took some pictures with him. (Real Groupie-ish)

I was super sad because I thought my brother James and my cousins would be in town but they didn’t come. So it kinda took away from the excitement. But I still saw a few of my homeboys from school.
Exciting news so today my BFF The Black Barbie just called me talking about to Usher concert. She is in LOVE with that man. So we will be there in November (in the Chi) We ♥ the Chi by the way. So it will be great times. Can't wait! I will make sure she will meet him. She must! lol Hopefully while we are there we can run into Common if he's not caking with Serena.. or hell kick it with Uncle Ye. That would be lovely.. just a thought.

Well i'm back bitches. So comment and come back tomorrow. I will post. I promise.

picture blog

if a picture can tell a thousand

words .. i wonder what mine would say

Birthday fun.. haha nope

hey bitches..
sorry i havent blogged in days... i just havent been in the mood. anywho.. about my big day. 9.12. =birthday.. hmMMm lets see besides dinner it [my new hair cut revealed]
pretty much sucked. it rained from 9.11 - 9.13.
people backed out at the last minute... so the atlanta trip was cancelled. Chicago.. wasnt fun at all. so thats basically it. if i didnt have an attitude. i was close to having one. all i did was waste money. $$$$$$$$$$$
thats my b.day wrap up. i damn near need new friends. lol

im really anticipating classic. hopefully it will be enjoyable. no rain, or snow (indiana weather is crazy)

ive been talking to [mister c] again. i cant let go. i dunno why. its super hard. but im happy where we are at. our relationship is super weird and cant be discribed in any way shape or form.. but i like it this way. I like being friends.

i met someone new but he is mad annoying ALREADY.
i dont understand why guys call as soon as i give them my number.
ughhhh thirsty! all he does is text and call me. its tooo much. too soon.

im over everything.. everyone.. im seriously on some solo stuff.
getting my thoughts together.

leave me be.

blah blah blah

Nothing really to blog about. I just feel like im here. Not doing a damn thing not being productive.. not caring. thats how i feel about things. im supposed to go to chicago for the weekend just because..no reason. thats how we do things..

im here bored out of my mind. thinking about copping a boyfriend. lol seriously i havent been in a relationship since my junior yr. in high school (a serious one) my last boyfriend was my freshman yr in college but i really dont count it because it didnt last long at all. so its about that time.

oh and i think im about to get a dog. i really want one.

B!@#F^$%$#F%!!

yeah thats my hair in the sink. i told everyone if i didnt leave for school i would do this. last night i was up [thinking] which in my case isnt always a good thing. i just got up. went in the bathroom pulled my hair back into a ponytail and cut it. after that i washed it and cut some more. craazy?? not really. all my problems are in that sink. seriously.
"this morning i woke up.. feeling brand new. i jumped up. put on headband and my flats.. grabbed my celly and the louie bag" with no remorse no regrets or anything. i actually started cutting a little more. my bestfriend Ashley- Ashley came over my house thinking i did something to myself because i wasnt answering my phone or responding to my text.


I just wanna be left alone though. no phone calls from anyone. not even my sister or bestfriends. i just need to regroup.im really stuck here. lol i cant believe it. i dont even care about the hair.. im just thinking about a lot of stuff. people and their ways. wondering why people are still so afraid to be themselves. This is not anything to get attention because i can careless about something like that. thats not my style. i dont want anyone worrying about me. It was to show im comfortable being who i am.. with or without hair. its sad i have to keep my ideas in my head because im afraid of someone stealing my credit. you can not steal my shine.

im still trying to move with one of my aunties in cali. indiana isnt the place for me. i love change wayyyy to much. cali, new york or atl. so where ever i can be.. i will be me.

peace out ppl .
sinercely,
Amber

so basically for the last couple weekend my friends and i have been going to the hooka bar. its something different.. everyone we tell is like .. "What is that? Yall crazy!" Its called trying something to new. We are all open minded and tired of the same ol same ol. It relaxing. Real chill and mellow. We just sit around, talk and laugh at each other. So if you havent tried you should. Go hooka. haha. its coooooo.

i gotta pocket full of sunshine =}

so i'm like really in love with Natasha Bedingfield. Her songs are so soulful and pure. she reminds me of Sade (pureness). It feels like she went into my soul and made a song for each and every feeling i have.. it doesnt matter if im happy, mad, sad, in love, wanting a boyfriend, feeling liberated and independent.. she has a song. she was already an amazing singer.. but she is amazing live as well. Her British accent is as cute as a doll too! I went to the concert last night with my bestfriend Ashley. We really enjoyed ourselves.

IN OTHER NEWS: GO BARACK!! NOW THATS WHAT IM TALKING ABOUT. HILLARY STILL HATING OF COURSE. PPL KILL ME TALKING ABOUT THEY AREN'T GOING TO VOTE BECAUSE OF HIS LACK OF EXPERIENCE. OKKAY. WHO REALLY HAS EXPERIENCE BEING A PRESIDENT. AND GEORGE BUSH HAD EXPERIENCE AND STILL FUCKED UP (HIS 2ND TERM) SO EXPERIENCE MEANS NOTHING TO ME. He IS THE MOST QUALIFIED, MOST DEDICATED.. IM EXCITED FOR HIM!

today is a very dull day. its rainy and cold. we have had our series of tornado's.. ? lol i have no complaints really. i can always use a nap. i never sleep. someone on facebook made a great point. "I NEVER SLEEP. ..BUT IF U SLEEP 8 HOURS A DAY, AND LIVE TO B 99..UD BE DONE SLEPT 33 YEARS.." thats crazy.. sleep to rejuvinate the body.. some people sleep to get away from whats going on in the world around them. but realize when u wake up.. everything will still be there. all i need is a nap. lol -- u better get up..get out and get something!!

"Beauty gets attention, but personality captures the heart."

peace and love people..