Birthday Bitch

If someones your "friend" must u argue and fight with them all the time? Nawww probably not. I dont consider someone like that a true friend. yes we might disagree but ALL the time and over the most PETTY shit.. thats just crazy

heres the story

a "friend" and i werent talking because of some petty shit
we started conversing again ONLY BECAUSE something terrible happened to a mutual friend of ours. so within this week i guess we were on somewhat of good terms.
the following week was her birthday. She really didnt tell me much.. the night before her 21st. we were going out to celebrate she wanted to be in the club at midnight. plan FAILED. it was raining cats and monkeys outside and god was in heaven taking pictures.. so the club was no longer a go.. in my opinion .. long story short. i wasnt going.. she had her roommate call me from her phone and ask me to drive 20 minutes out of my way to get them and take them to the club basically so i can be their designated driver.. ummmmmm wdf do i look like a taxi cab. i said no.

next day (her actually bitch day)
i received a text saying be at the restaurant at 7pm.
okay cool. thats all i knew.
i went to the restaurant late about 8:40 ish. because i didnt plan on eating
plan failed again.. she wasnt there.
i call her. she has an attitude (hear it all in her voice) saying she wasnt there yet. its damn near 9.. so im like wdf.. glad i didnt show up at 7pm i woulda been mad.
she arrives ..doesnt speak.. im like okkay wdf.. her entourage is all dressed up.. im in jeans. so i clearly was out the loop. i ask so whats going on tonight. her friend says.. were going to some cigar bar afterwards.. yup still out the loop. im like ill pass. was supposed to go out with her.. but was like fuck it. dont wanna deal with attitudes i wanted to ENJOY my night. so i did.
we havent spoke in 2 maybe 3 weeks. its a never ending cycle of pettiness. ive been the bigger person on each occasion and called to squash the dumb shit.. but im over it. i dont even know why i wrote a blog about this shit. im watching a movie and the same situation kind of went on.. so i was like well i can understand.

moral of my story.. be careful who you call your friend. some people are genuine some arent.

Pop champagne

time to roll out the red carpet, pop champagne, pull out the ciroc and patron and ish like that. yeah i made it 100!!! Thanks to everyone who reads my shit. keeps up with my scattered thoughts.. thanks for the advice (even when i dont need it) and recently the prayers and kind words. i love u guys. muahhhhhhhhhh =D

Borderline Suspect.

Yall know im scattered brained... I jump subject to subject (when i talk)


FRESH FACES....
The last guy i was talking about.. he is super annoying. Told yall it would last 3 days. I met a some guys last weekend. One from Atlanta, One from NY and one from freaking MIAMI. wdf? Maybe i should just move there. Okay maybe not. (that would be stupid) But we talked today. He's super funny. Met him in Atlanta. He's like shawty come back, I'll buy u a ticket. Yeah sure you will, and im sure you would want something in return. But the one from Atl.. He's really really nice.. borderline suspect.
I was reading Ambers post about how guys are basically a waste of time. I feel you girl. But im not looking for a relationship. Just entertainment.. a friend. I dont want to be tied down. Yeah i might say, "I want a boyfriend." But dont take me serious. Im just talking.

Blogging...
Im not posting again until Thursday. (It will be a picture post of last weekend.) I'll play catch up for awhile. (reading blogs) Plus im finishing this layout.

I have alot to do these up coming weeks (my sisters wedding is coming up.) I hate when my paychecks are spent before i can even touch them. I gotta do all this shit for other people. I need a spa day for myself. Oh and Bombchell. i cant wait to move to Atl. That trip made me even more excited. Swear.


FRIENDS
I think its better to have a couple of friends then a handfull of FAKE ones.
I swear i have the worse luck with friends. (girls) Cant stand em. I really dont care at the end..
...And another one bites the dust

Football Groupie?

Okay so this blog is super random. But all but one my best friends shitted on me for my birthday. (shitted on me=stood me up lol) One in particular had me really pissed. But im over it. My birthday was a week ago. She was broke. I cant be mad at her for that. Who am I to tell anyone how to spend their money.. Ne who. So I really havent talked to her like that since then. I’ve really been by myself. Focusing on me. Trying to find a damn job. I been chillin with fam really. This whole friend thing had me questioning a lot. Its coo tho. When birthdays roll around next year I will be incognito TRUST. (NEVERMiND I'M NOT THAT PETTY!)
Anywho so when I talked to her again. I lied my ass off to her. She basically thought I went to Monday night football and got with a Colts football player. "♥Reggie Wayne♥"

reggie is to the left. bob sanders fine ass is the the rt.

I been telling her im dippin off with him.. Real late at night & doing the grown folk. Of course she was hella excited cuz I been on a loooong drought. Sexless... I shall say. Believe it or not we get excited for each other when we get some. Haha. Weird right. So I lied to her and it was a REAL good lie. I gave her details and everything. She started asking questions about him and i really didnt know the answers. So i was just brushing her off and saying, "Well we didnt talk about all that.. it is what it is." She was calling me a baby whore. So I finally told her I was lying and we laughed sooo hard and for sooo long. (one of those i cant breathe laughs)
Its so hard for me to be mad at people. Especially when its dumb. But if my feelings get hurt (rarely) or I feel like someone is doing me wrong I am quick to chuck the deuces. People need to understand I am one of a effin kind. I am a great friend. A great supporter. Great listener. If you deserve my time then i will be there. If not. Eff you. So that’s how I been feelin. No one understands me. No one.


Question: how can one have so many friends but still feel all alone?

picture blog

if a picture can tell a thousand

words .. i wonder what mine would say

Birthday fun.. haha nope

hey bitches..
sorry i havent blogged in days... i just havent been in the mood. anywho.. about my big day. 9.12. =birthday.. hmMMm lets see besides dinner it [my new hair cut revealed]
pretty much sucked. it rained from 9.11 - 9.13.
people backed out at the last minute... so the atlanta trip was cancelled. Chicago.. wasnt fun at all. so thats basically it. if i didnt have an attitude. i was close to having one. all i did was waste money. $$$$$$$$$$$
thats my b.day wrap up. i damn near need new friends. lol

im really anticipating classic. hopefully it will be enjoyable. no rain, or snow (indiana weather is crazy)

ive been talking to [mister c] again. i cant let go. i dunno why. its super hard. but im happy where we are at. our relationship is super weird and cant be discribed in any way shape or form.. but i like it this way. I like being friends.

i met someone new but he is mad annoying ALREADY.
i dont understand why guys call as soon as i give them my number.
ughhhh thirsty! all he does is text and call me. its tooo much. too soon.

im over everything.. everyone.. im seriously on some solo stuff.
getting my thoughts together.

leave me be.

Times A Wasting

I have been slipping lately. I havent updated Jezebels or This blog. But really nothing has been going on with me. Im super excited for my big 2-1 birthday thats literally around the corner. I havent been going out because i wanna wait and have the urge to club when i actually can. Dude im going to be wastie facie! Ive been contemplating on what and where i should celebrate my birthday. My 20th birthday was soooooo perfect and i know its no way in hell i can top it! I was happy with all my friends, love life was coo, club scene was poppin and gifts were lovely. I know its no way in hell i can do better.. and this is the year that counts. Friends these days are exactly that... a damn word. People have been showing there true colors so i can care less. i need some fresh faces in my life. Love life... sucks ass! club scene is weakkkk. so i dunno. But my plan is to go to Atlanta.. leave here Thursday.. maybe stop in Huntsville. pick up some of my friends and head to the A on my birthday. if not its a Plies concert here in nap and maybe hit up the Chi the day after my birthday to shop and club. dunno. I know my girlie Shabriels birthday is the same day as mine and shes down to party. shes coo peeps and shes turning 21 too soooo i know that would be fun as hell. i dunno tho.

other news... geeked for classic. i miss ppl from A&M so bad and i cant wait to see them. its going to be soooooooooo much fun and ill be 21! coolness! its soooo much to do this year and to actually know players on the field and have a reason to go to classic is whats up. Its going to be fun!

WELL THATS MY BORING LIFE PPL!! If u wanna help me decide what to do on my birthday... go ahead and comment. Much love

HERE WE GO.. HERE WE GO AGAIN!

WARNING: RANDOM BLOGGING!

I CANT SLEEP! I never can sleep! I am seriously nocturnal. I was watching tv and saw the commercial {Lunista} for the sleeping pills. I know i cant really swallow pills but i need to learn. Im really considering sleeping pills though. Anywho. So im only blogging because my fellow (jezebel) Ashley blogged and put me in the mix. NO IM NOT IN LOVE ASHLEY!! lol Its soooo a difference from being in love and loving someone. I love him not in love with him. lol does that make sense? Well it makes sense to me. Basically its a guy from college. I kicked it with him while I was there and liked him A-LOT but were never official. (thinking of that dumb ass official girl song by cassie) But were just on good terms. This will last for about a week.. then i'll hate him again. Its really pointless talking to him. I mean we are hundreds of thousands of miles away.

Enough about him.

Im really frustrated. If one more person calls asking me to watch their kids. Babysitting was fun when i was 12 and 13. Im damn near 21. Sorry i dont have kids.. but dont expect me to do your job for you. I dont mind watching my niece because she's MY niece. But little cousins.. naw im coo. I cant be mean to my family. But i really dont wanna watch them. My cousin talking about can u come over before they go to sleep and make sure they get on the bus. Nigga how about can i get up to see them get on that sucka. My sleeping habits are off! Oh well



"All that we are is the result of what we have thought. The mind is everything. What we think we become.”- Buddha

You got me going in circles

So im about to be 21 like real soon. You dont understand how excited i am. i celebrated my 20th birthday like i was 21!! dont know how im going to possibly top it.. but im sure i will! With that said.. i've been thinking about the past year. its been hooooooooooorrible!

FRIENDS i've lost two of my closest friends over some bullcrap. i really miss them alot from time to time but im over it. i've learned friends come and go like seasons (in my case they do) Im not as close to some of my high school bff's like that anymore either. After going away to college i realized how much we really changed and were holding onto only because of the years. Dont get me wrong i still love them with all my heart and will do anything for them.. but being close with them means nothing to me anymore. sorry.

• RELATIONSHIPS - another year of being free.. better terms SINGLE! lol its not that big of a deal. Being single is cool sometimes but im definitely getting bored with it. So dont be surprised if i dont pop up with a boyfriend anytime soon.



• FAMILY - im extremely close to my sister. I actually go to family functions now too. I have a HUGE family and they weren't accepting some of my decisions that i've been making lately so i was straying away from them. I've been coming around lately but alot of them are still on my shit list.



• School. (ugh) dont even wanna talk about it. All i can say is ..CAN A SISTA PLEASE GET A CO-SIGNER! SHEESH!



• FINANCE.. im stable. im taking trips like every month until the year is out. AUG -Chi SEPT-ATL OCT-? T.B.A. NOV.-MIAMI DEC. - LA JAN-VEGAS BABY! Seems like alot. Well it is. But hey i dont have any kids, no responsibilites.. so this is what im supposed to be doing.



• Blog: very successful. [http://www.the-jezebels.blogspot.com/] Ashley and I have been trying to get this thing together for months and we finally got the hang of it. We find out new things everyday and are continuosly nit picking things. Its so good and im so proud of us both.

With that said. I hope this year (my 21st) brings me alot of happiness. Although happiness is a state of mind. I really hope things go into a positive light. I hope I am continued to be around those that feed off positive energy and i am able to accomplish more of my many goals i have set out for myself. Peace and Blessings Loves!