2.25.2009

The Struggle.

I am fighting with myself.
I am fighting with procrastination and my lack of dedication
I am fighting with the decisions made, regrets i've gained and tears i've drained
I am fighting with the hopes I have that I've set aside
I am fighting for a decent way to work a 9 to 5.
I am fighting with my heart since I cant let go.
I am fighting with reminiscing on the memories that i hold.
I am fighting with myself esteem and ego.
I am fighting with love. I fear the hurt that will follow.
I am fighting with the pride i have thats so hard to swallow.
I am fighting with my previous lifetime and the karma that follows me
I am fighting with being positive instead of this negative energy
I am fighting with listening instead of thinking i know everything
I am fighting with the past and my parents mistakes
I am fighting with patience to accept the things i can not change
I am fighting for my god given name
I am fighting cant you see.
I am fighting to become a better me.

4 comments:

All-Mi-T [Thought Crime] Rawdawgbuffalo said...

let the memories go, they only destroy your inner value. hope u dont mind the drive by rawdawgbuffalo

Georgee said...

Aww, Amber this made me feel better.

Kofi Bofah said...

You have to keep putting together small victories every day...

Amber Steez said...

@Torrance - u always say the right things =)

@Georgee =) smile honey. u'll be aight

@KB i agree