friends or hoes

what happened to those childhood best friends that were supposed to be there forever. They were to know you best, have your best interest at heart and never portray you or sleep with your boyfriend? I guess that's a fairytale..

i have selfish, self centered friends who you have to drown with alcohol to actually go out and have fun with.

i really feel like i just "deal with my current friends because I'm too lazy, mean and antisocial to meet new ones. so i accept the bs. don't get me wrong 3 of my friends have my back and will help me out if i need them.. well let me take that back. one friend would. the other.. she plays tic for tack so if shes not benefiting from it.. she honestly doesn't care. and the other.. were so on and off.. I'm confused if were dating or just friends (like i signed up for)

the others.. are faker than coach purses at the beauty shop.
i love them and care for them but those hoes work my nerves and I'm tired of the "Fake" smiles and having to play catch up every month..

so i give up.
I'm not writing this out of anger.. I'm keeping it real.
I'm 22. no kids.. no real responsibilities (I'm going to live it up) if you cant catch up you will get left behind.
my cousins have been trying to get close again.. and honestly i would rather deal with their bs (since they are family) then these plastic barbie bitches that are my "friends" i think I'm a great friend and i will give you my last if you need it.. but i don't feel like i would get the same in return. so why keep fronting? my sister used to warn me that everyone is not my friend.. as Ive gotten older.. i can clearly see it.